Insomania

i guess... u will nvr noe how much u hurt me by saying that, and u will nvr noe how long i stayed awake bcoz of that. i wish i can throw everything u gave me away. but when i think of the effort and time u put into it, i really cant bear to throw it. not even a single piece of tissue.

im pathetic. seriously.

I made it!!

i made it. going ielts next thurs. woot woot... so happy... most likely will be flying to gold coast on dec. hopefully i will make it pass med check-up. lol

i read her blog. she moved on. im happy and sad at the same time. a part of me still hav hope that we still can get together. a part of me juz happy that she moved on. really mixed filling.... i noe she will the person i wanna meet the most before i leave. sigh... and she will be 1 of the person i miss the most over thr. haizz...

Disappointed

these few mths felt like dream for me. from the day i get email asking me to go for 1st interview, till last sat when i did my final interview. i failed. i didnt make it thru for medical check up. sigh... but its fine la. i noe im not the best in that room. tons of ppl better than me. haizz.. but im really disappointed at myself. for screwing up the interview session, for giving ppl the wrong impression. mayb i will apply again next year. but that will depends on my current course. argh... im such a failure...

i screwed my interview...

the test was fine. except that i did 1 silly ( and i mean damn silly ) calculation on the short test. presentation wasnt that bad. every1 else presented about aeroplanes, airasia or holidays. only me presented on 'my dream girl'. that certainly make them remember me. XP

waited for 7 hrs till my turn for interview. chit chat wif other candidates, joke and laugh about all sort of stuff. then it was my turn. it wasnt good la. gave a bad first impression. i thought the next candidates supposed to straight away walk in. siapa tau when i walk in, even before i can finish greeting the capt said, who ask u to come in? wat u learn in skool? kena shoot kau kau wei. then i gave them the impression that i cant work under pressure. sure die ad. haizz.... i doubt i will get selected. lets juz hope for the best but prepare for the worst...

3rd interview!!

i got through to 3rd interview for airasia! weee.... hahaha.. but the 3rd interview will be the toughest of all. oral presentation without looking at wat u written for 5 mins, then interview. not forgetting a short test ( no clue on that ) before the presentation. and wat worse is that, i only got freaking 4 days to prepare everything! fine la, its my fault for not memorising the airasia's info. haha...

anyway, this blog shall be the place whr i pour all my feelings out. since i broke up wif her, i got no1 to talk to anymore. some1 close who i can tell practically every single thing to. sigh...

i had dinner wif her. it was for celebrating my bday. well, walking around the pyramid wif her, having dinner wif her, fetching her from and back to her house feels so... i dunno how to describe la. feel damn kau sad now. i really really miss her. i really really love her.... sob sob. i wish we can get back together, but i noe its impossible...

Breakfast

ppl say breakfast can cheer ur day up. it can provide u the energy that u need for at least half the day. all those thing r very true. in fact, i had 1 of the best breakfast this morning in these few weeks time. the best part is, its only RM 4.70. XP 2 hard-boiled egg, 1 horlick and 1 kopi. it really cheer my day up la...

ur hug is seriously the best. so soothing and comforable. haizz.. i wish i can hug u everyday, but i cant... ur hug brighten up my day.

Baby come back~

its 1 of the song in transformer 1. XP dunno the title. haha...

juz came back from bbq wif church frens. praise and worship + bbq session. it was fun. talking and chatting wif them. lol. and they like my mashed potato. hehe... dunno if they're lying or not. XD but it's finish. so.. i guess its not that bad la. hopefully no1 get diarhoe tmr. lol

i really miss her. everytime we meet or talk, i really feel like asking her if she wanna get together again. i noe its kinda impossible and stuff. haizz..

i really really miss her... =(